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Wednesday, September 02, 2009

For Rodney Alphonse Mathias (February 9, 1983 - August 31, 2009) - RIP

Rodney Alphonse
Rest In Peace

It’s only when you lose someone that you realize that there were so many things you had intended to say to the person but never did. It's been 36 hours since you passed away and I'm still in shock. (11:56 pm on Aug 31, 2009) It seems very unreal, like it’s happening to someone else, not me. Feels like one big messy bad trip. Kinda like I will wake up and realize that it didn't happen. I wanna wake up.

Rod, I never had the opportunity to tell you how much I admired your guts. You had the balls to do anything that you felt like. A lot of things that a normal person would not ever dream of doing. You were amazing. You accomplished so much so soon. Only 26. Created one of the best psy festivals in Asia – Shanti Jatra. Brought so many people together, opened so many doors for so many people. Made so many friends. Went through so much shit, but survived it and fought hard. Built a lot of things from scratch. Made so many plans. "Killer" plans as you would call them..

I wish I had known you for a longer time. I learnt so much from you. It was amazing how well you always knew me in such a short time and hardly ever missed an opportunity to mention so, much to my annoyance at those times. You were always so much fun to hang out with. Half the times I never realized you were pulling my leg. You tolerated so many of my tantrums, made me feel so special. One pair of green pajamas I wanted, you got so many. Miffu already

"What's daaaa sceeeeene man??" I miss hearing that. There were so many things we had to do together. So many plans. I feel like I didn't get enough of you. It was too short a time that I spent with you. I will wait till I see you in a world more beautiful than this, to do all of those things.

I miss waking up and seeing your sms. I miss those calls. I miss those long chats. I miss that smile. I miss those funny names we called each other. I miss the way you would try to calm me down by saying your favorite phrase "shanti shanti". I miss looking at you, goodlookin'. God knows, I miss so much more. You were always special for me, even though I might have been one of the many for you. You still are. I promise I will always be happy and have fun, like you wanted. Thank you for so much love. Thank you for everything. You will always be in my heart. And yes, I did love you.

May your soul always rest in peace.

August 2009

 

July 2009 (I will always treasure this, thank you for making it.)

 

July 2009

Edit - FYI

How it happened: Rodney had been ill for a while and unaware of how bad his sickle cell anemia had gotten. The doctors say that he was internally bleeding for a while. He died of a clot in his heart on 31st Aug at 11:56pm. His funeral was held on September 4, 2009 at 4:00pm in FGAG Cemetary on Hosur road in Bangalore, India.


Monday, August 24, 2009

Everything is round. Everything ends. Every ending leads to something new. Every new thing also ends. By the end of it, everything evens out everything. Everything is redundant by the end of everything. We’re all insignificant beings trying to justify our significance to other insignificant things and beings. Lost in time. Lost in past. We live in past. Present becomes past as soon as present is thought of.

I pen my thoughts, I read them..and I say "WHAT THE BLOODY FUCK"


Saturday, July 25, 2009

Has this ever happened to you when you're all by urself and start thinking about random stuff and all of a sudden you have the most random thought? Then you wonder where the thought came from. And then a cycle starts in the head when you trace back your thoughts to the previous thought and then keep tracing back thought by thought till you  find the root thought. That very root thought that led you to think about that weird random thought in the first place.

Haha, thinking can be so much fun at times!


Thursday, November 20, 2008

The McLeod Diaries - Shiva Cafe - Bhagsu - Dharamkot

 A much awaited trip for three girlfriends.

 

July 2008.

I have no idea how it happened. All of a sudden, in a moment of utter boredom, I heard myself utter "Let's go to McLeodganj". Priyanka was game for it, but it was a bit difficult convincing Reby. But after a week of planning, booking, arguing and bickering, we finally caught the train from Delhi to Pathankot. It was an overnight journey and three of us had a cabin to ourselves. We spent the night chatting, munching, laughing, and discreetly sipping white wine. After 3-4 hours of sleep, we woke up and got off at Pathankot station.

Ah, Saturday morning. We took a cab from Pathankot to McLeodganj. The cab journey took only 2 hours and I was amazed to see marijuana shrubs all around us. The scenery was beautiful and the cab driver told us about the landslide that recently happened in Himachal. As we entered McLeodganj, a typical Himachal traffic jam welcomed us. We got off the cab and after an hour of search, checked into Surya McLeod. We chose Surya because it was slightly far from the crowded hub. We didn’t have to worry about transportation as McLeodganj is a very small place and everything is just 5 minutes walk away.

After nice hot showers, and a big lunch, the three of us ventured out with our backpacks. We walked to a small village above McLeodganj called Dharamkot. It was just twenty minutes walk away but walking on the hills can be quite an exercise. The streets of Dharamkot reminded me of Goa. Narrow, with colorful open restaurants, and Israeli hippies walking around. It was on that very street, me and Priyanka spotted a sign that we had been looking for – “spike’s tattooing studio”. We had been eagerly waiting for this moment. We entered the studio, priyanka chose her tattoo design, and when my turn came, I chickened out. It just didn’t feel right. Maybe it wasn’t the right moment…

There’s something about the hills that makes you super hungry and God, McLeodganj is full of awesome restaurants and cafes with colorful walls and German / Israeli / Italian menu. We ordered pancakes, which were actually crepes, but amazing nonetheless.

We were too full to walk back to McLeodganj so we took an auto rickshaw back. We shopped on our way back to the Hotel. Where we drank some and changed for dinner. We wanted to dine at a rooftop restaurant but unfortunately all of them were overstuffed, so we couldn’t find a table, except at Asian Plaza where we had our worst meal of the trip. We ate dinner again back at our hotel cause a) it was complimentary, b) we were still hungry!

Next morning, we woke up early and walked to bhaksunath temple. We wanted to go to this place that we had heard about “Shiva Café”. A stoner’s delight. All we knew was that there was a narrow path near bhaksunath waterfall that led to Shiva café. After reaching the waterfall, it took us good 10-15 minutes to figure out the trail to Shiva café. It looked very narrow and we weren’t sure if it was the right way or not. I led the way, thinking that I was taking the biggest risk of my life, stepping on the slippery rocks on a very narrow trail, next to a very small sign that said “Shiva café up ahead”. One wrong step would have made me fall crashing down to the valley. At that moment, I could feel fear pump up the adrenaline rush. I felt fear because there were no professionals helping us unlike in the case of para sailing or bungee jumping, still I felt a mad rush of excitement as I had never done anything so scary without anyone’s help. After 20 minutes, we were finally there.

There it was, up on the hill, surrounded by colorful hand painted rocks and flowers – the Shiva café. Surprisingly, the only way to reach it was the one we took, so reaching that place on a car is out of question. We woke up the caretaker and asked him to fix us some breakfast, while we drank in the natural beauty that surrounded us. Three pancakes and a few doobies later, we decided it was time to head back.

The walk down from Shiva café was surprisingly very easy. We saw goats, horses and a psychedelic bug. I fell in love with the latter. If you don’t believe how a bug could be psychedelic, check out the pictures.

We got back to bhaksunath and ate lunch at the German Bakery; apparently, Himachal is full of these German Bakeries. We had humus with pita bread, potato wedges, lasagna and a pancake (but of course).

Back at the hotel room, we took long hot showers and hit dharamkot again as we wanted to check out this place we saw yesterday “Trek and dine” but were too full to try food there. We sat there and chilled for hours. Smoked, ate, read, chatted and what not.

On returning to McLeodganj, we hit the main street and shopped our hearts out. Sigh, it was our last day there. Me and Reby checked out the monastery where we met two girls from Tibet, who had WALKED all the way to McLeodganj from Tibet. It took them one full month to do so and it’s not an unusual thing for them to do we spent ages talking to them, and realized how those girls were so much like us, when in fact they appeared to be so different. They told us about their life in Tibet. We didn’t have to tell them about life in Delhi as they already knew so much! It made me realize how Indian culture is so exposed to the Asian countries, just like how American culture is exposed to the entire world.

Back at the hotel, out dinner buffet was waiting for us. And we ate again. Our fourth lavish meal of the day. No one looking at us can believe we can eat so much

Next morning, we caught a cab to Chakki Bank (its closer to McLeodganj than Pathankot) and took the train back to Delhi. There’s something about the journey back home after a fun trip. It always seems endless and super annoying. Whatever, it was one of the best trips, because it was with my girlfriends.

S. Kwatra



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Wednesday, September 17, 2008

I'm wondering if that was a dream? Is there really a thing called reality? Aren’t dreams more real than reality sometimes? Are we all just dust in the end? Does reality matter? Is reality just an illusion to something? Something that makes reality look like a daydream in comparison.
S. Kwatra



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